From Brokenness to Breakthrough
Have you ever wondered if God really hears your prayers?
Like the way He heard Grandma and Mama's prayers? I think a part of us has always wondered what that would be like. Then, when we come to a certain age in Christ—not just in life—we find that the same God who knew them, now knows us. All it took was a surrendered heart and an intentional relationship!
In my cringing teens and ratchet twenties, I knew of God, but it was on an as-needed basis. If I found myself in a sticky situation, I prayed that God would get me home safely… He did. When I got caught up in the streets and asked God to forgive me and bring me out of the mess I created… He did.
I believed God enough in trouble, but I didn’t trust Him enough with my whole heart.
I didn’t want to give Him the grief that tormented me for over twenty years after losing my mom. I didn’t want to give Him the suicidal thoughts I battled with, nor did I thank Him for the failed attempts. I didn’t hand over the rejection, abandonment, fear, trauma, and doubt that plagued me.
A part of me was comfortable with the identity attached to my brokenness. I didn’t think I deserved God’s love, so I mismanaged my emotions, relationships, buried the traumas, and overworked myself to deal with the internal turmoil. But how long can you keep a lid on a pot until it boils over?
Stress breeds sickness and ailments, but God’s grace restores and heals.
I think I was so afraid of God's discipline that I stood in the way of being delivered by Him.
It took Him shutting down my world so I could sit down and just be with Him—no distractions, no influences, nobody, just me and Him. And if I’m being honest, that’s when the real healing began. Yes, I went to therapy, and yes, I went to church, but I was only going through the motions.
So I challenge you: Stop and surrender before God has to stop you and watch what He does in you and through you!
Like the way He heard Grandma and Mama's prayers? I think a part of us has always wondered what that would be like. Then, when we come to a certain age in Christ—not just in life—we find that the same God who knew them, now knows us. All it took was a surrendered heart and an intentional relationship!
In my cringing teens and ratchet twenties, I knew of God, but it was on an as-needed basis. If I found myself in a sticky situation, I prayed that God would get me home safely… He did. When I got caught up in the streets and asked God to forgive me and bring me out of the mess I created… He did.
I believed God enough in trouble, but I didn’t trust Him enough with my whole heart.
I didn’t want to give Him the grief that tormented me for over twenty years after losing my mom. I didn’t want to give Him the suicidal thoughts I battled with, nor did I thank Him for the failed attempts. I didn’t hand over the rejection, abandonment, fear, trauma, and doubt that plagued me.
A part of me was comfortable with the identity attached to my brokenness. I didn’t think I deserved God’s love, so I mismanaged my emotions, relationships, buried the traumas, and overworked myself to deal with the internal turmoil. But how long can you keep a lid on a pot until it boils over?
Stress breeds sickness and ailments, but God’s grace restores and heals.
I think I was so afraid of God's discipline that I stood in the way of being delivered by Him.
It took Him shutting down my world so I could sit down and just be with Him—no distractions, no influences, nobody, just me and Him. And if I’m being honest, that’s when the real healing began. Yes, I went to therapy, and yes, I went to church, but I was only going through the motions.
So I challenge you: Stop and surrender before God has to stop you and watch what He does in you and through you!
Poetry Corner
I know what it’s like
to be caught up in religious acts
And still be far from God.
I know what it’s like
to want to be in control,
Think I can say I love God
yet still love the things of this world.
Runnin’ around broken,
Bleeding on who I’m supposed to bless,
Masking the pain I feel inside,
Thinking God don’t want this mess.
Till He called me out from amongst them,
From salvation to sanctification,
I started a journey,
Now the anointing is flagrant.
This faith sense don’t make sense,
Can’t run away from the demons—
the Word of God can slay them.
I been through enough,
I suffered, I survived.
Now it’s time to live.
You think you lived life,
But the darkness
was never right,
Wondering why you gotta fight
When you’re called to be the light.
The problem is you never answered,
Surrender to the King
So He can give you the answers.
The Word is manual,
These testimonials are the pamphlet.
The enemy wants to beat you
With condemnation,
So in shame, you go ghost like a phantom,
When you gotta get delivered.
These strongholds ain’t random—
The enemy got your soul for ransom.
I never wanted a platform
Or to be the main attraction,
But when you’re called,
You better be obedient in actions.
Spilling my struggles like it’s tea
To set every listener free—
Who am I to stay silent
After all the things God has done for me?
The enemy’s been after me
Since the time I was born.
He wanted to snatch my destiny,
But I repented, now I’m transformed.
It’s best to obey than to sacrifice,
It’s best you surrender today
Than to push it back another time.
These days ain’t promised,
And they getting shorter.
Praying for God's mercy—
It’s about to be a slaughter.
Narrow is the gate,
Difficult is the way,
But I thank God I found that path
Before judgment day.
Now every day I choose life
Over destruction.
The Lord orders my steps,
And I’m obeying without a question.
You gon’ surrender,
Or you gon’ die a sinner?
Choose wisely.
to be caught up in religious acts
And still be far from God.
I know what it’s like
to want to be in control,
Think I can say I love God
yet still love the things of this world.
Runnin’ around broken,
Bleeding on who I’m supposed to bless,
Masking the pain I feel inside,
Thinking God don’t want this mess.
Till He called me out from amongst them,
From salvation to sanctification,
I started a journey,
Now the anointing is flagrant.
This faith sense don’t make sense,
Can’t run away from the demons—
the Word of God can slay them.
I been through enough,
I suffered, I survived.
Now it’s time to live.
You think you lived life,
But the darkness
was never right,
Wondering why you gotta fight
When you’re called to be the light.
The problem is you never answered,
Surrender to the King
So He can give you the answers.
The Word is manual,
These testimonials are the pamphlet.
The enemy wants to beat you
With condemnation,
So in shame, you go ghost like a phantom,
When you gotta get delivered.
These strongholds ain’t random—
The enemy got your soul for ransom.
I never wanted a platform
Or to be the main attraction,
But when you’re called,
You better be obedient in actions.
Spilling my struggles like it’s tea
To set every listener free—
Who am I to stay silent
After all the things God has done for me?
The enemy’s been after me
Since the time I was born.
He wanted to snatch my destiny,
But I repented, now I’m transformed.
It’s best to obey than to sacrifice,
It’s best you surrender today
Than to push it back another time.
These days ain’t promised,
And they getting shorter.
Praying for God's mercy—
It’s about to be a slaughter.
Narrow is the gate,
Difficult is the way,
But I thank God I found that path
Before judgment day.
Now every day I choose life
Over destruction.
The Lord orders my steps,
And I’m obeying without a question.
You gon’ surrender,
Or you gon’ die a sinner?
Choose wisely.
Remain Anchored in Faith
Break up with the things that are breaking you and step into breakthrough!
God is waiting for you to surrender it all to HIM.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)
God is waiting for you to surrender it all to HIM.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)
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