One of the biggest revelations I've received is that my comfort will never align with God's calling. What God does and desires from us will always surpass human capacity. I cannot fulfill my purpose in my own strength. This also means I couldn't reach my calling while clinging to the things that brought me the most comfort.

God began revealing the areas where I sought comfort to soothe my flesh instead of pursuing Him. I once found peace in the wrong things: I smoked weed to numb myself rather than face grief, emotional pain, and depression head-on. Drinking D'usse and Hennessy became a way to suppress my true feelings. I would conform to the environments I was in, the social groups around me, and even relationships because I didn't know who I was—I only knew how to be who others needed me to be. But here's the thing: God couldn't use me in that place. I couldn't hear His voice or feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit when I was absorbed in my false comforts. I was distant from Him, not because He left me, but because I had chosen other things to cope instead of trusting Him.
 
As God begins to strip away these things, we stop relying on our vices and start relying on His strength and power.

This process wasn't easy for me. In fact, it was straight painful. It tested me in ways I hadn't imagined. I received a life-altering diagnosis. My husband's court dates were continually pushed back. Medical bills piled up while we lived on a fixed income. In the past, all of these things might have broken me. I would have folded under the pressure, seeking solace in the old comforts that once numbed me. But this time, I didn't fold. This time, I broke the cycle. The enemy studies our habits and patterns, but this time, I stood firm. 
I stood ten toes down in my faith and reliance on God. I didn't return to what was once comfortable; I leaned into the discomfort.

I began to see God's glory manifest in my obedience and surrender. When I stopped relying on my comforts and instead leaned into God, I began to see a breakthrough in my circumstances and spirit. When you surrender to the process, you release your grip on control. This is where the limits are lifted, the chains are broken, and God moves in ways you couldn't have imagined. And know that the discomfort is often the sign that you're en route to your destiny. It's a sign that God is shaking things up because He is transforming  you for something greater.

Maybe you're holding onto something that makes you feel safe or in control. Maybe it's a habit, a relationship, or an environment that keeps you comfortable but distant from God's purpose. God's calling will always require you to let go of what soothes your flesh. He doesn't want us to rely on things that take His place. When you finally come to the end of yourself—when you stop worrying about the circumstances and give it all over to God—you will be amazed by what He can do in you, through you, and for you.

I challenge you to surrender to the process. Submit to God. Pick up your cross and walk. You have to die to your flesh daily if you want to be used by God. This isn't a pretty process. It isn't fun. It isn't comfortable—but it is life-changing. When you decide to walk in faith and step into the unknown with God, you'll see Him work in ways beyond your imagination. It's in this place of discomfort that you'll witness His exceeding, abundant power at work in your life, just as it says in Ephesians 3:20, "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us."

So, I challenge you to lean into the discomfort. Trust that the discomfort indicates that you're moving toward your divine purpose. Keep your eyes on the Lord, walk by faith, and declare victory—because the process leads you closer to His promises.

The biggest setback really be self,
Don’t blame the enemy—
The one to blame is yourself.
Your vices are hindering you;
God just wants to use you.

But you conform to the comfort in the crisis
Instead of surrendering those vices.
On the outside you look kept,
But you couldn’t be further from God.

You practice religion,
But can’t hear His voice at all.
How much longer will you stay stagnant,
Complaining that things aren’t changing?

God is waiting on you
To release control,
So He can bring the change.
Your disobedience keeps you bound in chains,
Your comfortability has you thinking
All churches are the same.
Some part of you believes Christianity isn’t pain,
But if Christ had to suffer,
Who are you to remain unchanged?

There is no victory in the vices,
Only in the cross.
Can you die to who you were,
And unlearn the wrong you were taught?

If you fight back against the demons
Instead of using comforts to soothe them,
You’d see that all that’s in you—
God can still use you.

Change your tone,
Change your taste,
Change your view.
You can’t be renewed
Holding onto the old you.

Freedom is waiting when you let go.
What’s the measure of your faith
When you can stand tall and say “no”?
Faith is required when God says “go,”
But He will never force you—
You’ve got the power to choose.
The ball is in your court—win or lose.

Often, the real battle is not against external forces but against the internal comforts we cling to—those habits that keep us far from God. The enemy doesn’t always need to interfere when we’re already keeping ourselves bound by our own choices. Just like I had to, God may be asking you to release your vices and trust Him fully. It’s in your surrender that freedom is found. If God did it for me, I know that He can do it for you.